I wrote it on a sticky note and look at it everyday. Unfortunately I didn't write who said it and it may be paraphrased, nonetheless the essence is still there.
There is no doubt in my mind that I would love to live by this.
At any point, anything we said could be the last thing we ever say, it's really strange to think about. When I read Looking for Alaska by John Green, I kept thinking about the quote every time it mentioned someones last words, which was a lot. The idea of last words is terrifying yet wonderful. It can either be the one brilliant thing you say in your life, or something really stupid that makes people question what you did before. It certainly isn't fair but it happens. While, yes, clearly not everyone's last words will be repeated forever, I would hope that my last words are at least somewhat representative of who I am and don't make people question who I was before.
I'll be honest, I say a lot of stupid things. We all do. And every time I do, I think about how I would feel if those were the last things I said. Even weeks later I think about one stupid phrase and *shudder*. I don't want to be remembered as that kind of person.
But even worse would be if my last words were rude or hurtful. Yes I say mean things. And while I am a very caring person, there are people I just don't like and I have said not so nice things about them. Sometimes I think I have the right to. Like when *a certain person* was very rudely (and loudly) bragging about scores on something very important to me and I did not do as well as what she was saying. It was upsetting even though she has been known to stretch the truth frequently. But then, I found out that I was second under one of my friends. We both have a mutual disliking of said person, so the first thing we both said was "We were better than her! Yes! Finally caught her in a lie" It is not one of my finest moments. I am not just a conceded person who compares herself to others arrogantly. I was just excited. Even so, I still worry that that may have been the last thing I ever said (clearly it wasn't so thank goodness for that). That is not who I am, and if those last words were all that people knew about me, I don't think they would assume very good things.
I constantly strive to be a good person and I genuinely care about others, but I am a person. I say ignorant or impolite things.
It is now my goal, once again, to try much harder to say more things that I would be happy if they were my last words. Because saying I will only say those things is not realistic, I am a teenager after all. Obviously I'll still have vain conversations about the perfection of One Direction and Ed Sheeran and the cheesecake that I devoured yesterday, because those are both part of who I am. But I am determined to think more about things I say and try to show my positive side much more than the negative one.
Anyone have any tips on how to do this? Please? Sometimes my filter doesn't quite work...But at least I'm working on it right?